<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/11889425?origin\x3dhttp://msmlife.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

Thursday, March 29, 2007

♥ Parent's Anniversary

2dae, da whole wen out 2gether 2 eat 2 celebrate our parent's anniversary... 29th March is da dae t both my parents got married... I was suppose 2 go 2 Sentosa but in d end it was cancelled... Actually, i was glad tt i was cancelled cuz i didnt knew tt 2dae was my parent's anniversary... I onli knew abt it wen i wokr up n told my dad tt da Sentosa trip was cancel... Den at tt moment he told mii tt 2dae was dier aniversary... Damn, i nd 2 think b4 i act agn...

But anywae, wen out at 5pm... Wen 2 Downtown East n waited 4 my sis... Wen i reach Downtown East, i bumped into Wendy & Wei Ling... Dere r goin 2 dier pri sch frenz bdae party... Cool... I dun even keep in contact wif any 1 of my pri sch frenz... Hehehe... Wen my sis reached, we all set off 2 Sakura Restaurant... Finally, my 1st time eatin at Sakura Restaurant... Da moment i reached inside, im like a siao person, goin thru all da food n lookin at wad kind of food dey hv... Dey sure hv alot of food...

I sure ate alot... All kinds of food... Hehehe... But da person hu ate da most is none other den my MOM!!!!... Hehehe... Surprisingly, she sure can eat alot... LOLsss... After eatin alot of food, my stomach was so full n i feel like its goin 2 explode... But it was worth it eatin dere... Da food was all 1st class... Power seh... :D... After eatin, we juz relax abit, eatin some dessert n den wen back...

Im glad tt i didnt wen 2 Sentosa wif my frenz n instead wen 2 Sakura Restaurant wif my family... I guess, ive been goin out wif my frenz tt i didnt even think abt spendin time wif my family... Well, tts all goin 2 change... I hope...

♥ And did I tell you that I will LOVE you ALWAYS
8:30 PM
0 commented

Thursday, March 22, 2007

♥ Sick & Dreams

Ive been sick for 1 wk now... I guess nobody noes tt im reallie sick rite now bcuz i juz shut myslef out from da world... Ive been lying on my bed, watchin dvd and tv... I didnt even wan 2 surf on da com until 2dae... I hate bein sick... But sometime si guess bein sick helps mii 2 think straight... I sure hv been thinkin alot... Thinkin of her 2...

Theres a few ppl hu commented tt i sld wake up... I sld waku up from dis dream of mine... But i dun wan 2 wake up... I dun wan dis dream of mine 2 end... I juz wan 2 life in dis dream of mine forever... Some ppl said tt my feelins 4 her is pure... Well, it is... Even rite now, even wen physically shes not her wif mii but i cld feel her inside of mii... In my heart, in my mind... I even dream of her durin my slp... A dream tt i felt real n i didnt want 2 wake up... I juz feel like i wan 2 juz keep on dreamin, nvr 2 wake up... Cuz onli in my dream can i win her heart...

I luv her so much... Sometimes, i envy my other fren hu r close 2 her as well... I envy dem so much tt juz by readin her blog makes mii so angry n frustrated... Sigh... I juz cant live on my life like dis anymore... I juz feel like givin up, n let everything go but i cldnt... I watch a show tt is exactly like mii, exactly like wad im livin thru rite now... In da show, da endin 4 dis guy turns out well... As usual, all movies end wif a happy ending... I wish my lfe is like a movie, n im da director... If tt da case, den defintely it wld b a happy endin... But unfortunately, i can onli direct my own life like a movie onli in my dreams... But even so, bcuz of dreams, it keeps mii goin... It makes mii wanna realise my dream no matter wad, even if i hv 2 sacrifice everything tt i hv work hard 4... I wld do tt 4 her... All i wan is 2 win her heart...

♥ And did I tell you that I will LOVE you ALWAYS
10:24 PM
0 commented

Thursday, March 15, 2007

♥ IFC Camp & Luv Her 4ever

Had IFC Camp on da 13th to 14th of March... Da camp started at 5:30pm... I can early so sat at da IHUB rm 4 a while den wen down 2 da registratin booth... Deres onli like 10 ppl onli hu attend it but it was okies... Although da number is small, but we can still hv alot of fun... Den had our ice breakin games... We played a few games like da Angle & Mortal which is like da Wacko game, some card game like poker, and snake & ladder... Da snake & ladder was abit funny cuz although da qns was abit lame n tricky, but d other grp had 2 restart da game all over agn several times... LOLsss...

Den after tt ice breakin games was da station games... Da station games was held outside of TP... Our 1st taask was 2 search for our mentor ard TP... My grp mentor was Eric... We wen 2 Design School n search 4 him cuz da clue tt we got was "U can find ur at an artistic place"... So Design School was partically da perfect place 2 find him... Sharon was d 1 hu saw him... She was eating something den wen she wanted 2 climb up da stairs, she got a shocked cuz Eric was like standin dere... Hehehe.. Den off 2 our station games... A few of da station games was abit weird cuz i cldnt find da objective of da game... Like da wizard thingy, we were given a card n we were suppose 2 solve da riddle... But d idea was dere, teamwork but da riddle was too tricky... Some games was gr8 like da spooky hbd or da maze tingy... Overall da station game was fun... After da station games, we clean ursleves up n wen 2 slp.. Most of us, i didnt.. Hehehe...

2nd day started at 9am... Ate or breakfast but i didnt... Some how i juz dun feel like eating at tt time... Den had our mass dance.. We had our engine dance, tp dance n chicky dance... 2 my surprise, da ihub ppl was not hype 4 da mass dance which kinda make it so borin seh.. Den in d end, it like mii, belvin, samuel n karen onli dancing da mass dance.. Like wad seh... Free show 4 dem r... But nvm, as long i had fun...

After da mass dance, we had break den off 4 our wet games... Da wet games was gr8... After da wet games was da lunch games... B4 it started, Nadiah called mii... She wanted 2 asked mii out... I was shocked but at da same time i was like heartbroken cuz i cldnt go out wif er bcuz of da camp... I was so frustrated wif myself tt i didnt had any mood 2 conntinue playing da activities.. All i cld think of rite now was her n onli her... Throught da day, i didnt eat anything... I onli drink plain water onli... I juz don feel like eating...

Wen back hm by taxi... Check my exam results n i pass all... But i still cldnt 4get abt her... I guess i wasted 2 times of my oppurtunity... 2 times u noe... All bcuz of my stupid cca tingy... After checkin my results, dunnoe 4 some reason my body juz like shutdown... I cldnt rmb much abt wad happen after checkin mu results...

I guess ytd i had a dream... A wonderful dream... But although it was a dream, but it sure felt so real... I dunnoe whether it is a dream or a flashback of da good old daes... A flash back of da gd old daes i had wif Nadiah... In class, laughin n mii teasin her... Mii walkin her from sch 2 pasir ris interchange... Mii n her at da beach wen she had her probs, n tt was durin my bdae... Grad nite... Racial Harmony Day ect... All those moments was so wonderful... I dun wan 2 wake up, i juz dun wan 2 end so fast... All those memories i hv wif her is sth tt i will not 4get in my entire life... I luv her deeply tt not gettin 2 c her hurt mii so much... Its like cuttin my heart into pieces... No gal can ever compare 2 her... N bcuz of tt, i cant move on... I dun wan 2 move on... I will always rmb her n will always hope tt 1 dae i will b wif her... No matter how long it will take... N hope is d onli thing tt keep mii goin... Bottom line is, I LUV HER 4EVER!!!!!!!!

♥ And did I tell you that I will LOVE you ALWAYS
4:13 PM
0 commented

Friday, March 09, 2007

♥ Da ans i was lookin 4

2dae im suppose 2 go 4 da GL Meetin in sch at 1pm but didnt go... Tts bcuz i wanna spent time wif my lil cousin and her family... We wen swimmin at Jurong Swimming Complex... Although its far, but got car, so nvm... N its much much more better den Wild Wild Wet and way cheaper to... Woke up at 9am, ate breakfast n got ready... Den wen off... Sent my dad to Tampines 1st, so i drop off at Pasir Ris Central to ask whether my grandmother wanted 2 tag along or not...

My grandmother was sick... Had a fever... So i wen back down n 2 my surprise, i saw her... I saw my dream gal n her name is Nadiah Jamallodin... She was goin 2 da beach bcuz she was abit angry... In my heart, i was delighted 2 c her... Den wen i found out tt she was havin probs, i was like damn... I feel like juz hack care wif da swimmin trip n go 2 da beach wif her... B dere 2 listen 2 all her probs and try 2 help her out... But i didnt do it... At tt time 2 i wanted 2 hug her... I dunnoe y i juz feel like i wanted 2 hug her but didnt had da guts 2 do it... I hear her probs out 4 a while den damn, my uncle came... He was fast, if onli i had afew more mins wif her wld b gr8... So had 2 go off n leave her alone... Damn, my heart was in pain seein her like tt... I sure miss her smile n laughter...

While drivin 2 Jurong Swimmin Complex, i msg her to noe how she was doin... She sounded fine, but dunnoe y i juz felt like shes not... Sigh, i dunnoe y, juz a feelin... Onli den did i knew tt da ans tt i was lookin 4 was rite infront of my face... Ytd, a gal once said how fast a guy's feelins cld change... N now i truly noe how im feelin rite now... Da reason 2 my change of heart was due to desperation 4 a gf... Now i noe tt i dun wan a gf anymore... I dun wan 2 find luv anymore... All i wan is 2 b dere for Nadiah wen shes down, wen she nds some1... Tts all tt i wan... If u r askin whether will i wait 4 her, i guess i will... Dis conversation i had wif her was da key 2 da ans:

Saidil: Nad, sorrie i cldnt b dere 4 u... I wanted 2 hug u cuz u do nd a hug juz now but nvr...
Hang on dere okies... Anythin call mii

Nadiah: Ya. Itz ok anewae. I wld b fine aft dis k. Nice bumpin into u juz now. Haf fun swimmin!

Saidil: N it was nice bumping in2 u... I finally found da ans tt i was lookin 4... Thx

Nadiah: Wad is it?

Saidil: A gal once asked mii, wad r my feelins rite now... I cldnt ans her den cuz my feelins r all
over the place... Now i do hv da ans

Nadiah: Hmz?

Saidil: I now noe tt my feelins is 4 u, 2 help u, 2 b dere 4 u... N ive made a decision 2 wait 4 u
still... I guess last time i was desperate 4 a gf now im not

Nadiah: Ohk. Bt u do noe dat it wun happen rite? Im so sori abt dat. Sigh. Newae u sld
concentrate on ur fam now. Aite? Tc

Saidil: I noe it wun happen but atleast i can b dere 4 u as a fren

Nadiah: Yup u can..

Saidil: N tts all tt i wan in return... 2 b dere 4 u as a fren...

After tt, i kept on thinkin of her durin da journey 2 Jurong Swimmin Complex... Reached dere, wen in, change clothes n started swimmin... I had a fun time wif my lil cousin, but at da same time, wen i was like lyin down, i kept on thinkin of da gd old times i had wif her durin sec sch... It was fun n gr8 n those memories i will always keep it close 2 my heart... Den after da swimmin wen 2 eat den wanted 2 go 2 da IT Show at Suntec but since dere wasnt any parkin place, we decided 2 go hm... My mind n thoughts rite now is feel wif her smile, her laughter n memories of her tt i hv... Wen i c da show called "My Heart", its like directly da same thing except tt deres 2 guys n i gal... Wld da outcome b like da show, "My Heart"??? I truly dunnoe... Here's da song from the show "My Heart"... Da lyrics is meaninful 2 mii...

♥ And did I tell you that I will LOVE you ALWAYS
6:17 PM
0 commented

Monday, March 05, 2007

♥ Apologise

Ok i muz admit, my last entry abt Khafian is rude wif all da vulgarities n all... But i juz cant help it, tts how i feel abt him rite now, n it makes mii so angry... But i wld like 2 apologise 2 Khafian 4 sayin such stuff in here... But do try 2 understand how i am feelin rite now...

Ytd had alot of fun gettin 2 noe dis gal from frenster... She said she was from my pri sch... I do find her abit familiar but cldnt quite picture her into my memory... I usually dun rmb all my pri sch frenz... Usually its d other way rnd... Usually they will approached mii n say tt they knew mii... I juz play along, acted as if i knew dem, den asked dem 2 re-intro demselves agn... Make frenz back agn i guess... We sure chatted until quite late... Hehehe...

Well, i tried 2 move on but dunnoe y my heart wldnt let mii move on... Mayb cuz deres no gal like her or no gal can compare 2 her... I dunnoe... Rite now, i juz let it b at da moment... C wad happens in da mere future... Mayb i may get over her, mayb not... The future is uncertain... All i noe is 2 better let everything rest in fate...

♥ And did I tell you that I will LOVE you ALWAYS
1:59 PM
0 commented

Saturday, March 03, 2007

♥ The End

1stly, i wld like 2 say im till n always in luv wif da gal of my dreams since sec sch... I guess ive nvr moved on... Even wen im attached wif another gal, i keep on thinkin of her... And in d end, i had 2 break up wif dis gal and hurt her... But its better dis way... I dun wan 2 drag da relationship any longer... Dunnoe y but i guess bcuz of my luv 4 her, i can nvr moved on... Dunnoe how long will it take 4 mii 2 moved on, but i noe now i nvr did move on... I keep on thinkin of her every sec... N da moment i c her, i feel like my heart was beating faster n slower at da same time... So far, no other gal has ever make mii feel dis way... Sigh... I noe she's attached but still, i juz feel like deres still hope 4 mii 2 b wif her... But all i noe is tt i will support her all da wae n always b dere 4 her no matter wad... I juz feel like im lost w/o her... She's like everything 2 mii... I dunmind laying down my life 4 her... I reallie dun mind... Sigh... I juz hope tt she's stay happy always... I will always keep on thinkin of u... Always

2ndly 2 my sec sch mates... 2 some of dem, i noe i didnt keep in contact wif u all but do rmb tt i will always rmb u all always... Some do rmb mii 2... Thx... A few of my sec sch frenz tt i dislike abit like Khafian... No offence Khafian but i find u 2 b "sombong" now... U look at mii as if im a fucking devil... Well, im angry at u... Yes, im so furious... Dunnoe y u suddenly change but here's a word of advice: "SCREW U!!!"... I nvr expected out of all ppl, u 2 be so fucking "Sombong"... So fine, juz get out of my fuckin life...

To my TP classmates, yo thx man 4 everything... Im glad tt ive choose dis course, Info-Communications... But now its like a bonus cuz im in da best class ever... Ive nvr feel so syiok wif every1... Although we've been 2gether 4 like 1 yrs now, but i feel like we've been frenz life 4ever... Thx u all... U all r da best... W/o u all, i guess my TP life wont b da same... Thx 4 da laughter, da teachins, da jokes and da CNY visiting 2 was gr8... It was my 1st time goin CNY visiting... Thx alot... All i hope is tt we will frenz 2gether no matter wad...

To my TP frenz, CCA frenz i mean, i noe i had 2 quit half way but sorrie if i did tt... But hope tt wad i did, didnt affect u all in any other way... Juz think as it as a temp setback... All da best in da upcomings event... I noe u all will do a gd job, or sld i say da best job ever... As 4 mii, i juz follow wad my heart tells mii 2 do... But ive nvr regret wif all da decision tt ive made... Actually, im happy into doin tt... Cuz i wanna test myself on diff angel n diff ways... But still, do try ur best EX and "Jia You"...

♥ And did I tell you that I will LOVE you ALWAYS
8:11 PM
0 commented

♥ Blissed Lover ;

    Muhammad Saidil Bin Mohamed
    1st November 1988
    Scorpio
    Temasek Polytechnic
    20 years old

♥ Lover's Song ;



    ♥ Lover's Likings ;

      Movies
      Music
      Bowling
      Pool
      Hangin out wif frenz
      Chattin(MSN)
      Driving ard Singapore

    ♥ Lover's Hates ;

      Sluts
      Bitches
      Mat
      Minah
      Backstabbers

    ♥ Lover's Wishes ;

      To get a Diploma in Info-Communications
      To get my dream car --> Honda Civic Type R
      To be with my Sayang

    ♥ Pretty Moments

    ♥ Past rawr-ing

    • March 2010
    • September 2009
    • June 2009
    • May 2009
    • April 2009
    • March 2009
    • February 2009
    • January 2009
    • December 2008
    • November 2008
    • October 2008
    • December 2007
    • October 2007
    • July 2007
    • June 2007
    • May 2007
    • April 2007
    • March 2007
    • February 2007
    • January 2007
    • December 2006
    • November 2006
    • October 2006
    • September 2006
    • August 2006
    • July 2006
    • June 2006
    • May 2006
    • April 2006
    • March 2006
    • February 2006
    • January 2006
    • December 2005
    • November 2005
    • October 2005
    • September 2005
    • August 2005
    • July 2005
    • June 2005
    • May 2005
    • April 2005